Private Session
1/15/2012
Troy Tolley

[MEntity] Hello, Bobby. We may begin our exchange now.

[Bobby] Hello, again :-)

[Bobby] Clif High of the webbot project has predicted, with a high probability, a large earthquake to occur in my area between March and June of this year followed by what he has called a coastal event which would be some sort of seawater intrusion.  All of this is due to be caused by some sort of Pacific plate fracture possibly.  Since the potential earthquake has been predicted with considerable magnitude, I would like to know based upon probabilities just what you're able to see regarding either of these events.  I realize you do not predict so I am asking the questions based upon probabilities only.

[MEntity] Even with access to all probabilities, our best calculations can be "wrong" at any given point when measured against time frame and actuality. Those who develop tools for casting calculations for probabilities from "within" the Physical Plane for Physical Plane phenomenon, such as weather, can do so with similar capacity, and similar accuracies in actuality.

[MEntity] A probability can be calculated at over 90% and still not move into actuality, for a number of reasons.

[MEntity] With that being said, the probabilities for an event such as the one described for the time frame described would appear to us to be at approximately 35%. This has risen since the year 2000 by approximately 10%.

[MEntity] This indicates some validity to the concern, but it does not give us any indication for actuality within the time period described.

[MEntity] The fragment in question, however, does not appear to us to have any methods of validity for predictions or calculations of probabilities.

[Bobby] lol, ok

[Bobby] Is there a cycle of Higher Moving Center Energy that would "help" make this more sure out there in the future somewhere?

[MEntity] The Center of any given year is something that tends to be determined by momentum of the year previous to that, so it is difficult to calculate this in advance for more than the next year. There are cycles that are not particularly hooked into Sentience that can be observed, such as Solar cycles, and certain weather event cycles and seasons, and these may have some relevance.

[MEntity] Earthquakes tend to move outside of any obvious cycle, and tend to be relative to a number of coalescing factors, from plate shifts to electromagnetic fluctuations and shifts.

[Bobby] What is his Role and Soul Age by the way?

[MEntity] The fragment in question appears to be a 5th Level Mature Priest-Cast Artisan.

[Bobby] Unless you have more, I'll move on

[Bobby] Last month, when I asked if I had completed my 4th IM or not, you responded with "we do not think it is completed. When issues of self-as-resource, or self-confidence, are cleared up, we think there may be rapid movement toward closure."  Are the issues of "self-as-resource" and/or "self-confidence" unresolved 3rd IM issues that are holding up the 4th IM?  What specifically am I doing or not doing that is keeping me from completing the current IM?

[Recent 4th IM follow-up HERE]

[MEntity] The only reason you have not completed this Internal Monad is because you are not finished. It is not that you were blocking or delaying or dropping the efforts. It is, simply, occurring at your particular pace. There have been ebbs and flows of effort and retreat, but no interest in closing this without completion.

[MEntity] What you are doing that is helping to contribute to the completion is the taking of responsibility for your self as a resource. The definition of "resource" has come to change over time, and the range of value has expanded to include tangible and intangible contribution and sharing.

[Bobby] How exactly is it determined that it is ever completed then?

[Bobby] Since this is a personality based IM, I would think there would be certain markers one could go by.

[MEntity] It makes a difference if you contribute criticism, badgering, bickering, dismissal, distance, or if you contribute kindness, patience, laughter, playfulness, intimacy, ideas, creativity, and sanctuary. Those "things" count as much as any dollar, if not more. Though all contributions will have their importance for specific effects (you cannot pay rent with laughter, for instance), they are

[MEntity] still beneficial resources that must, eventually, be appreciated.

[Bobby] I see.  So currently then the contributions are still weighted a little more to that negative end of the spectrum then?

[MEntity] For most, the markers for completion of the 4th Internal Monad might be:

[MEntity] One begins to appreciate one's innocence and the innocence of others, and drops the constant necessity for destructive criticism. [For me, I think this was the key]

[MEntity] One begins to like oneself, and others, from a gentler stance that does not require defense.

[MEntity] One no longer "hides."

[Bobby] What would be an example of a way that I still "hide"?

[MEntity] One feels as if there is a stable return to participation, contribution, and creation of the life.

[MEntity] One tends to find that the life is flexible and adaptable, instead of fixed by any conclusions at any given time.

[MEntity] We are speaking about markers for all who complete this Internal Monad, not specific to you.

[MEntity] However, in terms of "hiding," this can be quite literal in that one avoids interaction with the life, or a complete indulgence in the life, so as not to truly be responsible for the life.

[MEntity] Or, for the older soul, this can be much more subtle, such as contorting the self to match the expectations of others and to avoid "rocking the boat," or dealing with conflict, or hiding through the presumption that others contort to one's own expectations.

[MEntity] In your case, we think your pattern was to "hide" in terms of retreat into the self to avoid conflicts or disappointment.

[MEntity] Eventually, the completion of the 4th Internal Monad comes with a realization that disappointment is not the same thing as definition, and conflict is not the same thing as needing to be right or to win.

[Bobby] The "to avoid conflicts" though seems to run counter to accepting another's innocence.  I balance: do I allow them to be testy and nasty or do I fight back when challenged.

[Bobby] I think I do a LOT less of the latter, now, but there is still some of that to some degree.

[MEntity] The balance is simple in philosophy, but not always so simple in application. That balance is through lack of defense.

[MEntity] If you feel yourself getting heated and reactionary, you are in a state of defense.

[MEntity] If you find yourself disengaged and dismissive, you are in a state of defense.

[Bobby] Ok, I'll keep on working on it.  I have the rest of this lifetime to finish it, if need be :-)

[Bobby] Unless you have anything else to add to this one, I'll move on...

[MEntity] Recognizing the innocence of another, even as they are "testy and nasty" is giving them the benefit of the doubt, and hearing that testy nastiness as a plea to be seen and heard.

[MEntity] Reaching past the defensiveness that the testy behavior can provoke, and doing one's best to see and hear the other person, can often help transform those scenarios. It is also fair to leave that dynamic if this does not work.

[MEntity] The next time one is being testy and nasty, and this includes your own internal voice if provoked, try the response: "I'm hearing you." or "I'm doing my best to hear you. I want to understand."

[Bobby] ok

[MEntity] That is all you can do. If that invitation is rejected, then you can step away while maintaining your integrity and wholeness, instead of fracturing yourself through reaction and defenses.

[MEntity] Try it out on yourself the next time you are having a "bad day." Let yourself know that you hear you. Saying it in those kindest of words, "I do hear you." can give you an idea of how empowering that recognition can be for returning everyone, or all parts, back to a level field of exchange.

[Bobby] In a response to one of Martha's questions not long ago, you mentioned that a past incarnation of mine was as a Dutch Humanist philosopher.  Was this personality Desiderius Erasmus?

[Martha has begun an extensive past-life project for the Renaissance period HERE]

[MEntity] Regarding your Essence's past as the fragment known as "Erasmus," that would appear to be correct.

[Bobby] Was this lifetime lived as my last lifetime at Mature level 7?

[MEntity] It would seem so. Though we may find there are concurrents.

[Bobby] What was the dynamic between Erasmus and Martin Luther?  Were they task companions? If so, was Luther the King or Warrior TC?

[MEntity] The fragment in question as it relates to your Essence is its Essence Twin.

[Bobby] ah, I had considered that one too... geez, Luther was a Server huh?

[MEntity] A Sage-Cast Server, with quite an emphasis on the casting through the dynamic of Overleaves.

[Bobby] It is said that Erasmus' last words were "Dear God!".  Was there any significance to this in particular?  Did he see or experience something on his deathbed that caused him to proclaim this phrase?

[MEntity] Those last words appear to be valid in translation, and were indicative of that Personality's affinity with the sense of a higher force, using the most symbolic term he understood as representing that, and calling out for this upon exiting.

[MEntity] We would say that he experienced something more than seeing something, as the acceleration and expansion began.

[Bobby] In finishing up a Soul Age and final level, I would think so.

[MEntity] In general, the experience of death is this. If you have nodded off with a sudden jolt as if falling, you have experienced part of the process that is similar to dying.

[MEntity] Except that you do not wake up, flailing.

[Bobby] As morbid as this sounds, I'm looking forward to it :-)

[MEntity] We enjoy the morbid.

[MEntity] Or rather, what we enjoy is often labeled as "morbid." To the Personality and Body, dying is not supposed to be appealing, nor exciting, so there are default programs built into organisms for survival, but as Essence, and as Entity, we have our favorite ways to die.

[Bobby] lol

[Bobby] Again, unless you have anything else to add about Erasmus, I'll move on...

[Bobby] Would you share with me some of the more major Essence Agreements planned for this year?

[MEntity] Though Agreements can be created, abdicated, and changed at any given moment, those Major Agreements for 2013 appear to be, so far: sustaining, revitalizing current Mate Agreement; hosting or corralling a local gathering of students; inspiring reunion (on an Essence level) with a female Scholar-Artisan fragment who may be known for her talent in use of the Tarot; collaboration with a Warrior

[MEntity] male and King male emphasizing "freedom and expansion;" breakthrough experience of intimacy with parents.

[Bobby] Do you see a time frame as far as the collaboration with the Warrior/King?

[MEntity] This may fluctuate, but it seems to have an emphasis in the late Summer, early Fall.

[Bobby] Is there anything you can add as far as the intimacy breakthrough with my parents.  That sounds "interesting".

[MEntity] And, of course, your Agreements with your Configuration for continued manifestation and fulfillment of tasks.

[MEntity] The Agreements with your parents appear to be born of work being done in both the Physical, between your Personalities, and in the Astral. We think that some shift in comprehension by one or both may be in the works that would transform your sense of inclusion and acceptance. This does not appear to be dramatic, but a kind of clarity of message that you would understand as more meaningful than

[MEntity] even they may realize.

[Bobby] ok

[MEntity] By "inclusion and acceptance," we mean an ease into common ground of comfort.

[Bobby] I may come back for more regarding these in another session but I'll continue "marching" on from here for now :-)

[Bobby] Last night I had a dream where I and another male were driving trying to get to New York City.  It was located along the shores of Lake Erie though instead of being coastal.  A town name that I remember clearly was "Blumford" or something like that.  I searched this morning to see if it was an actual town but didn't find anything on it.  Is there anything you can offer on this dream or the town name?

[I had inquired about this area before HERE(Austin PA) which initially kicked off my Dream Blog]

[MEntity] This appears to have been an exploratory mix of symbolism and past life recall. Several fragments with whom your Essence is close had a rather profound weaving of lifetimes fairly recently in the incarnational history.

[MEntity] We think this exploration was prompted by your resonance with Troy, as this refers to one of his past lives as a patron to a tea shop and seamstress service that required some passage near an area of Erie that may have been referred to by "Bloomfield."

[Bobby] ah ok, I found that town name

[MEntity] This would not be the town.

[MEntity] But more an area or designation relative to the city of Erie.

[MEntity] The male may have been Troy, as his Essence built from that life a pattern that has led to the current life in New York City.

[MEntity] We must conclude here for today.

[MEntity] Good evening to you, Bobby.

[Bobby] thank you though for the session.  It was great!

[MEntity] Goodbye.

[Bobby] see ya later