using your Truth Love Energy to learn how to choose, and to choose how to learn
I had a wonderful time this weekend. My band got to play at the annual Barbeque Fest in my town. I feel bad for all those pigs that were killed so the towns people could celebrate the consumption of deceased animal flesh. Though, I did not partake in the pig meat my band did provide music for the last day of the event.
The show went great, they usually do. One particular moment has stayed in my mind and it was strange. It was during a cover song we were playing, "Till Summer Comes Around" by Keith Urban. I'm not a huge fan of Keith Urban, but my band plays "Till Summer Comes Around" in a way that basically makes the song into a huge sexy bass solo. I remember at one point in the song I stopped thinking about what I was doing. It was almost as if I was observing myself from an omniscient point of view. I could see what I was doing, I could see myself standing there playing the bass, as if it wasn't me I was even looking at. I could see the notes I was playing and I could feel the rhythm in my groove but It didn't feel like "only" me. It didn't feel like ME at all. For a moment I wasn't ME, it was weird, I was A LOT more than me in that particular moment.
There is not doubt in my mind that something relating to opening up to essence is what happened to me that day. Before every show that I play, I usually sit and have a "one on one" with essence (I call him Hugo). During this time I just relax and let "Hugo" know that I'm about to play music and that I want him to join me. I ask him to co-create the music with me and I let him know that I am mentally open to the idea of Manifesting Essence. I have noticed that the more I make a conscious effort to invite Essence into my ever day life the really intimate moments like playing music become much more profound and "sexual." (sexual as in the way Michael would describe "sex" as "moving in unison with something other than self.")
I really don't know what to say about my "essence contact" other than, "Cool, I'd like to do it again sometime." It was a really crazy feeling to totally drop my EGO, if even for a second I felt like everything at one time.