using your Truth Love Energy to learn how to choose, and to choose how to learn
Please do not take offense by this post, as that is not my intention. I know the people on this website are not ones to take offense anyway. :) These are just ramblings of my 24-year old self.
I am a proud Michael student. Michael's teachings and message rings true to my heart and I feel there is some much of my own truth in all of it. I don't think I'll ever stop finding MT fascinating and good for my soul, but I honestly cannot get fully submerged like others do, and I think here's why:
1. I don't think that anyone really knows anything. We all have moments of "knowing", and we each have our own guides, intuitions, etc. We can feel truth on a deep level, but in our normal waking state here on earth, we're all pretty much clueless. It seems ridiculous to me that I would spend extensive amount of time trying to figure it all out, calling myself specific names and putting myself in a little chart somewhere. I simply do not know, so it doesn't really matter! My higher self knows more than I do, and I'm totally fine with that.
2. We are all ONE. You are me and I am you. We are all one of the same. Michael teaches us that we are all connected and our individuality, although valid and true, is simply a point of view. We separate ourselves for the sake of joy and experience, but we are all ONE. Our world problems exist due to separation and denial, which causes fear; a fear that is the seed of all things "wrong" with our world today. I feel that putting myself in a little chart where I am "here" at this setting and number, and you are "there" with your number, and Look-how-much-I've-moved-in-my-chart, is silly to me. I don't even care if I evolve backwards. I don't understand many things and I simply live for what I want to believe in that day. I'm pragmatic, but life is also pragmatic, I think. Life is about experience, and although making a little chart is fun, I'm not going to rack my brain over it.
3. Our view of the universe is soooo little!!! We cannot possibly understand all of the relationships that exist in our universe. I feel like MT is a theory (a really good one), but it's just a theory. It could get knocked down in a jiffy by my death experience. Have you seen the movie Ants? How the ants saw themselves as being at the center of their universe? That's how I feel about everything I experience, and learn. Yes, it's valid to me, but it's only mine, and I am not at the center of the universe. My universe is different than my dog's universe. It's ridiculous to try to validate either one.
4. Getting too absorbed in ANY MT topic feels wrong to me - When I read your posts about the technicalities of your journey, I feel happy, honestly happy for you. But, I also feel like I'm getting farther and farther away from what my life is really all about. The more I analyze with my brain, the less I listen with my heart. Cuddling on the couch with a loved one grounds me. Watering my geraniums grounds me. Telling myself how lucky I am to be in this AMAZING universe grounds me. Giving myself a soul age, mode, IM, and Essence Twin feels like a set-back; it puts my farther away from who I really am. It feels limiting.
I am undefined, beautiful, chaotic, perfect. I am you. I am nothing and I am everything.