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Last year's goals and results
These were my actual goals at the beginning of the 2012. At the beginning of the year I had a boost of productivity and began planning everything. I didn't follow through on all of them -- actually only one got accomplished as-is, but I learned that there's nothing wrong with goals changing or receding from importance as priorities and preferences change.
Become a full-time trader - I did my homework as much as I could, eventually realizing that I am not cut out for short-term trading. That was disappointing. Now I've backed off and am mostly doing long-term investing.
Organize the house - did not get done as much of the stuff belongs to Tex, and some things just have to go before the rest can be reorganized. Will work on it slowly this year.
Exercise regularly - Was difficult to motivate myself until mid-year when it was channeled as my platform for the year. That gave me motivation to do it more regularly and now I not only exercise 2-3 times a week, but I enjoy it as well. It has become a comfortable routine for me.
Start an investing blog - Lost interest. Realized I do not like writing to a vague audience, and I no longer have enough interest in the subject.
Learn physics/chemistry - put on backburner as I'm starting school for accounting. Still on my to-learn list.
Major Accomplishments
- I'm done with the charge and resentment I had toward my parents and can now see them as innocent people. I think they did a great job raising me.
- My confidence and self-expression skyrocketed this year as a consequence of that realization. Amazing. Here I thought I made great leaps in confidence last year. It just gets better and better.
- I'm working with Michael's teachings more closely than I have in the past, and I have never felt more in charge of my life.
- I began exercising regularly as a result of my platform and discovered the joy of moving my body.
- I found a career direction that fits my personality that I could be excited about.
- We explored dietary changes for health and now have a new dietary equilibrium much higher in fruits and vegetables than before. I don't feel much different healthwise, but I like the way we eat now and don't plan to go back. I started out trying to do the Eat to Live diet to the letter, but I learned that 1) I cannot make myself do strict diets on a long term basis and 2) it is no more than human nature to go back and forth between the ideal and the familiar on the road to making changes. We're now about halfway between the old and the "ideal", and I'm fine with staying where we are.
- I came across several books which touched on how our emotions act as a sensory system, the most significant one being The Language of Emotions. It taught me to embrace my emotions, which made a big impact immediately. In my healing work I was always taught that "negative" emotions were bad, and if I felt it, it must mean I was being "reactive" and fearful. I was told it was better to be "non-attached" to both positive and negative events, which I took to mean "non-emotional." I tried to distance myself from my emotions. But actually, emotions are just information. Sometimes "negative" emotions tell you something about the present and are not from old patterns at all. Once I embraced my emotions, it was like my world went from black and white to technicolor. The positive emotions were brighter, and the "negative" emotions, oddly enough, were more "okay". And even more interesting, I learned that one can be emotional yet "non-attached" at the same time. I can feel my emotions and let them go.
- Michael commented on my philosophy of "Compassionate Patience" that I've developed over this year. I had thought it was a 4th IM thing. Some time earlier this year I began to understand, on a visceral level, that we human beings have ups and downs. We are NOT consistent. We do not do things perfectly. It is not only okay, but NORMAL to succeed and fail, succeed and fail, succeed and fail. Like the stock market (which is made of collective choices), we do not go up or down in a straight line. We zig and we zag. Upon understanding this, I began to show myself a lot more compassion in response to my upsets and missteps. As a result, I have become my own most comforting companion.
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Comment by Diane HB on January 21, 2013 at 8:23pm Btw, I didn't mean to imply that one can completely avoid unpleasant emotions, but the more one heeds them, and the fewer resistance one has to them, the less "bad" they feel. We actually do experience the less constricting ends of fear, anger, sadness, etc, we just have other names for them.
And no, cholesterol is not the cause of heart disease, but an indicator. Tex calls it a band-aid the body creates in response to inflammation. Its levels can indicate the amount of inflammation in the body, but it's not what creates the inflammation. So using drugs to lower cholesterol actually does nothing to solve the problem.
Tex's first career was a physician's assistant, so he's a good resource on how the body works. :)
Comment by ViP on January 21, 2013 at 6:12pm Diane, thanks for that detailed reply... I don't think I'd read your writeup on the Language of Emotions previously, must have missed it.
They're only unpleasant when they're obstructed, and that was quite a revelation to me.
That's a revelation to me too. I'll have to try just letting it flow.
About Eat to Live, actually, the first thing I thought of as soon as I got the gist of his diet plan was that it matched what Michael had said about leafy green vegetables, and fruits. It's good to know that you don't have to stick to the hard version of it but can still get a lot of benefits. Thanks for recommending th eother two books, I'll have to check them out. There are a couple other trends in diet that I've noticed - one is that "wheat is bad for you" (book: Wheat Belly). This one seems interesting. Another is that cholesterol is not actually a cause of heart disease, but is made to look bad because it causes damage after the real culprit has already occurred (inflammation; source: Dr Stephen Sinatra, via the Dr Oz show.)
Comment by Diane HB on January 19, 2013 at 2:13pm VIP:
I did a write-up about The Language of Emotions if you haven't seen it. It was extremely helpful for embracing and understanding my emotions, but the author doesn't talk much about the intellectual beliefs that caused those emotions, so in my opinion she doesn't go "up the stream" far enough. Her info helped me become comfortable in my own skin, but I came back to Michael for the intellectual aspect. Also, she talks about "positive" and "negative" spectrums of an emotion we consider unpleasant, such as fear -- what they feel like when they're in flow, and what they feel like when they're obstructed. They're only unpleasant when they're obstructed, and that was quite a revelation to me. Michael actually hinted at this same info in the Wholeness of Soul course (which I should follow up on), but I've never seen it elsewhere.
From WOS: "For the most part, Fear only has power to PROTECT you, NOT to control you. For the most part, the only reason any of you ever feel the more constricting ends of the spectrum of Fear, is because you DO NOT LISTEN."
Re: Eat to Live
It is hard, but the really strict version of the diet is primarily for people who want to lose a lot of weight and heal diabetes, heart disease, etc. He has another book called "Eat for Health" that outlines a more gradual transition to the full-on version. Doing it around 50%, we're still eating about 4-5x more fruits and vegetables than we were before.
I think Eat to Live is really important to read because sticking to a diet long-term has everything to do with why you're eating the things you're eating. I felt that I got the whole picture from Dr. Fuhrman in terms of current scientific evidence that unprocessed fruits and vegetables are the foods that keep us in optimum health. He even gave me tools for evaluating future nutrition research. If you listen to media reports of nutrition research, they always say such-and-such thing has a lot of a vitamin/nutrient, but they never tell you how much and in comparison to what. I recently heard that popcorn and potatoes have "a lot of" a couple kinds of vitamins in them (probably funded by popcorn and potato growers). The problem with that is, they're both high-calorie foods, which means they'll have a low nutrient-to-calorie ratio no matter what nutrients are in there. If you consume mostly foods low in micro-nutrients and high in calories, you end up consuming less nutrients overall, which are what the body needs for optimal health.
Anyway, from his book I learned to eat a lot of fruits and vegetables with whatever other less healthy stuff I'm eating.
I would also recommend two other books on diet that rounded out my understanding. They are Healthy at 100 by John Robbins and In Defense of Food by Michael Pollan. Healthy at 100 (which I read back in 2007 or so) shows empirical evidence of the optimum diet by examining the diet and lifestyle of four cultures that historically had healthy elders living to their 80s, 90s, 100s. They all had diets high in fruits, vegetables, beans, some grains, and low in animal protein and process food. They also had active lifestyles and lived in cultures that valued community, and old people were respected and treasured. So diet is not the only factor.
In Defense of Food provides a really enlightening look at the unreliability of nutritional science. Essentially, scientific studies on food generally tries to isolate nutrients to see what they do, but you really can't study individual micro-nutrients in isolation, because there are massive numbers of them in a single food, and they interact differently in the body based on other foods the person is eating. I think it's important to read because you learn to not take nutritional studies as gospel.
And finally, both Eat to Live and Healthy at 100 validate "Michael's diet" for me. All this came about because my husband Tex is much older than me, and we wanted to keep him alive and healthy for a long time. I had my doubts when Michael first mentioned that an optimum diet is vegetarian, because we were doing something close to the Zone diet at the time, and I liked meat. But I also didn't feel good about the amount of meat we were eating because I'd already read a lot more evidence for a plant-based diet being healthier. Michael's diet suggestions reminded me of Healthy at 100, so I bought it for Tex to read. It convinced him to switch to vegetarian immediately (though we are back to eating small amounts of meat when eating out, because he can't have soy). I kept reading and a few months later stumbled across Eat to Live, which recommended virtually the same diet as Michael. That pretty much cinched it for me.
Comment by ViP on January 18, 2013 at 10:50pm I'll have to check out the Language of Emotions. Coincidentally, I ordered Eat to Live not too long ago after seeing the author on PBS - sounds like it must be about as hard to stick to as I thought!
Comment by Diane HB on January 15, 2013 at 11:51pm Thanks guys. :)
Comment by Maxim on January 15, 2013 at 9:58pm Diane, you graded your own report card ;)
Here's to more zigging and zagging.
Comment by Maureen on January 15, 2013 at 1:30pm You are a great thinker and writer Diane. I love your clarity, your focus, and your insight. I not only learn more about you as I read ...I learn more about myself. Thanks!
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