using your Truth Love Energy to learn how to choose, and to choose how to learn
A few days ago I was reading online information about youth subcultures and was struck by the definition of youth cultures as "meaning systems". Of course this can be applied to any culture to a certain extent, but it stands out more with youth culture as they exist more to provide identity then sustenance.
For a great deal of time I took comfort in subscribing to a very specific meaning system couched in a very specific youth culture. With this external structure I could easily make meaning and have it validated as meaningful by my peers.
more recently external meaning systems strike me as dissonant to my inner longings. I feel like I'm "picking my way through the woods," that I'm not on a preexisting path or road.
I care very deeply about the state of the world, about pollution, oppression, and violence against animals. I live in rural Tennessee and try to grow as much food as I can. The only animal products I eat is dairy from goats I milk. I don't consume any drugs, including caffeine or refined sugar. I ride a bike. I do yoga everyday for at least an hour.
I feel a degree of embarrassment for my old posts on this site when I was younger and more foolhardy and asleep. I've considered deleting my account but thought better of it. A few months ago I posted a blog where some people called me on my big ups and downs and suggested I may be bipolar. I'm glad to say that my sobriety combined with yoga practice has helped me avoid big ups and downs. also, I've been starting to really enjoy who I am. I'm starting to like myself. Sure, there are many ways that I miss the mark but who I am feels like a major accomplishment to me. This is new! I feel content!!
anyways! I love you TLE! So much!