using your Truth Love Energy to learn how to choose, and to choose how to learn
[Hani] Once you said in every soul level we manifest the essence at least once, and I would like to know how many lives have I had as an old level 3 and if I have had any life manifesting essence in this level so far? Also why was there so much emphasis from essence for this personality (Hani) to gain consciousness at very early age?
[MEntity] Your Essence appears to be in its 4th life at the 3rd Level, each having Manifested Essence. It is rare that an Old Soul does not Manifest Essence. Keep in mind that "Manifesting Essence" is any moment when the Personality is in its Positive Poles, and recognizes itself, is self-aware, awake.
[MEntity] Sustaining Manifested Essence is difficult, and not particularly appealing for any great length of time.
[MEntity] What becomes important is not the sustaining of Manifestation, but the conscious access to Manifesting Essence as needed, wanted.
[MEntity] In metaphorical terms, even the oldest of souls love to "get into" the movies they watch.
[Hani] and why so much emphasis on gaining consciousnesses early on?
[MEntity] You have had many moments of Essence Manifestation in the current life. And it was not so much that it was a plan for the regaining of consciousness in any accelerated way as it was a natural pace that is familiar to your Essence after so many lifetimes.
[MEntity] Many older souls tend toward this because there is a tendency for self-karma and personal evolution by this time, and less distraction with karma.
[Hani] Recently I am mostly not in good moods, I feel sad and unhappy and I have no idea what’s going on, while there doesn’t seem to be anything drastically going wrong overall but I can’t seem to be able to sustain a peaceful mind
[Hani] I am hoping you can shed some light on it for me and if you could give me a cryptic message from my essence
[MEntity] Hani, the most recent Nexus left many of our students in a state of grief, disorientation, bad dreams, with some sadness and moodiness as a result of the Convergences. However, you are also naturally inclined toward over-thinking, over-analyzing, and then shutting down, like a short-circuiting, because there are demands on your processes that are unnecessary.
[Hani] what demands are on my processes?
[Hani] I C
[MEntity] What we mean by this is
[MEntity] What we mean by this is that you are hard on yourself, pushing yourself to make sense, make meaning, make progress, make up for, etc.
[Hani] sounds like me :)
[MEntity] Your Goal is Discrimination. It is important to understand what this means.
[MEntity] In its simplist of terms, it means that everything in your life is being funneled into the experience of learning how to make better choices, more refined choices.
[MEntity] Before you learn how that works for you, you learn how it does not work for you.
[MEntity] And so Discrimination falls into Rejection.
[Hani] I thought I was past that phase(Rejection)
[MEntity] This is a shutting down of the process of choice.
[MEntity] You are a spectrum, Hani, not a linear path. You will fall into Rejection.
[Hani] I understand now :)
[MEntity] Even the Positive Poles of an Overleaf will INCLUDE its Negative Pole.
[MEntity] The difference is that when the Negative Pole is on its own, it feels like that is all there is: Rejection. When Rejection is used as part of Sophistication, the Positive Pole, it means you have learned to say "no" to that which is appropriately turned away, instead of to everything.
[MEntity] What is left is Sophistication, because you have embraced what is aligned with you. When you say no to everything, you lose what is aligned with you in the process.
[MEntity] We have more to say, of course.