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Private Live Chat Q&A and Essence Report on my oldest son, who is a 7th Level Young, Scholar-cast King, and has only 5 Grand Cycles “under his belt”. I’m not sure what it means – but note at the beginning of the Essence Report Troy/Michael does not state, as is usual, “Your Essence chose the Role of XX over 6 million years ago by current time measurements of Earth cycles…”.
From a Private Live Chat on October 16, 2012:
[Diane]: My son Peter is a King, what will his kingdom be?
[MEntity]: He is not a part of any Kingdom, as of yet.
[Diane]: What will it likely be?
[MEntity]: Are you speaking of the Kingdoms of Sage, Priest, etc?
[Diane]: Peter is a King, isn't he?
[MEntity]: Not all Kings have a Kingdom, and may become parts of a Kingdom.
[MEntity]: A small percentage of 6th Level Old fragments take on the work of Kingdoms.
[MEntity]: These can be of any Role.
[MEntity]: In the sense of characteristics of a Role, all Kings will tend to see the world as a Kingdom, and all Priests will tend to see the world as a Congregation, but these are different from the construct that we describe as a Kingdom. If a Priest has a Kingdom, it would tend to be managed as a Congregation, however.
[Diane]: How many previous lives have I shared with Peter? How many previous lives have Maureen and Peter shared?
[MEntity]: It would seem that approximately 98 lives have been shared between you and Peter; and approximately 72 between Maureen and Peter.
[MEntity]: The fragment known as Peter has turned to some of the "older" fragments, in terms of Grand Cycles, for this move through Sentience, because his Essence has far fewer Grand Cycles "under its belt." Both have been "great teachers" for this Essence.
[Maureen]: Do Diane and Peter have a Heart Link?
[Diane]: Do I have a Heart Link with Peter?
[MEntity]: Not Yet. If the shared experiences continue, it would seem this could develop.
[Maureen]: Actually Michael - would one need to be closer to Soul Age Level to have a Heart Link?
[MEntity]: It helps when the Soul Age and Levels are close, but that is not necessary. It is the experiences that contribute to this path toward the Heart Link.
STUDENT: Diane’s oldest son
A NOTE FROM MICHAEL: In this requested report, we will share with you what we can find in your records about the subjects requested as relevant to your Essence. ...
BEYOND YOU: a look at who “you” are beyond this lifetime, including comments about your Essence Twin, your Casting within your Entity, your Frequency, and your Focused/Creative Energy Ratio.
Your Essence appears to have chosen its Role of King after 4 Grand Cycles exploring the Roles of Server, Scholar, Warrior, and Artisan, consecutively. We do not see any particular pattern here except that the current Grand Cycle is the first to choose an Exalted Role. All previous Grand Cycles were of an Ordinal Role.
Though each Grand Cycle is independent of influence from any other Grand Cycle, there is still the history that is carried forth by Essence, and this is a factor in the creation and exploration of each Grand Cycle.
In your case, we would think that because of your Essence’s inclination for the Ordinal, along with your Scholar Casting, your Role of King may be “quieter” than other manifestations of the Role. We would think that your method for leadership would be through keen observation, with a preference for more “behind-the-scenes” than as a prominent presence. This may tend to bring about some conflicting behaviors and feelings generated from the necessity for the King to be in full control, but also to be more subtle than usual. Finding the balance between being a King and behaving as a King may be difficult, but as the Personality matures, and the soul ages, the finesse of this may come to be quite beautiful and impressive.
With Scholar Casting, the day-to-day Personality will manage the life in ways that are more observational and neutral, almost invisibly, but when the King “shines” it is when there is any necessity for your choices and actions to be important, to be considered as meaningful to more than yourself. When there is recognition for the value of your choices and actions, the King comes forward. In more personal terms, the King comes forth in times of crisis and struggle. This can be addictive to a quiet King. The quiet King will tend to “enjoy” scrambling from one struggle to the next so that there is always a territory of life to bring to order, substituting for a kingdom.
You share a position with approximately 5% of the population of Essences who did not choose to have an Essence Twin for this Grand Cycle. Those who do not choose an Essence Twin tend to generate lifetimes that are a push-pull between craving intimacy and enjoying solitude, between ennui and enthusiasm. There tends to be necessary at least one individual in the life who is willing to push “the buttons” of the Personality in ways that prompt reflection and self-awareness. Over time, and lifetimes, this tends to generate a collection of surrogate Essence Twins, or fragments who choose to play as similar a role as possible as an Essence Twin might. The fragment recognized as your Mother is one of those surrogates in the current lifetime, and has been across many lifetimes.
UBER-PATTERNS: a look at how some of the key dynamics of your Essence Design have shown up across lifetimes, including the overall arcing theme that contributes to the experience and knowledge of your Entity.
We would describe the greater arc of themes across your Essence’s lifetimes as being CALCULATION. By this we mean that your Essence and Personalities tend toward variations on the assessment of risks, possibilities, or effects of a situation or course of action. This can be as freeing as it can be paralyzing, but the effects of action (and conversely, that of inaction) are fascinating to your Essence. From the perspective of the Role of King, and as an Exalted Role, it is thrilling to no end to be able to grasp the cascading effects of a single choice or action, even when those lead to some difficult times. This inherent fascination with the effects of choice and action can seem to wreak havoc with stability in a lifetime, but if there is an understanding of the life unfolding with such fascination for the powers of choice and action, then it goes without saying that there comes a realization of just how profoundly a single choice or action can turn the life around, as often as it can derail it.
THE CURRENT YOU: a look at current lifetime themes, status of your Essence Twin, how your positive and negative poles show up, and any obstacles and solutions to fully manifesting Essence through this Personality.
When you are embracing of your Essence, and Manifesting True Personality, we might describe this as being exemplified through your PATIENCE. When you are in Essence, there is a stillness that is carried with you, like a deep lake, that is not void of fear or feeling, but calmed by trust. There is a sense of knowing that you will be okay, and that you can, eventually, come to a place of understanding, stability, fulfillment, etc., no matter how “stuck” you may seem at the time. This patience is directed toward the self, but extends into your relationships, as often as possible. Mistakes, failings, and flaws are dealt with patiently and with trust, when Essence is present.
When you are rejecting of Essence, and Manifesting False Personality, we might describe this as DEPRESSED. By this we mean that there is such a sense of helplessness about the conditions of the life, relationship, or experience that it turns into anger, turned inward. This generates depression. This can sometimes go unnoticed because there is a quietness to the life, as it is, but it is felt. It can be quite heavy. Depression comes as a reaction to the sense of inability to Calculate (or trust) any longer. This is overwhelming, because the “math” of a situation, relationship, or experience gets lost.
When this kind of rejection of Essence and Manifestation of False Personality is in place, it would help to understand that your anger is a means of helping to gain the space and time necessary to distance yourself from the factors that need to be assessed for Calculation. When you begin to feel as if experience is consuming you, the anger comes in as a means to help you return to being the consumer, rather than the consumed. Instead of presuming that something may be wrong, it can be helpful to remember that this is simply a fail-safe to help you create that distance that allows for calculation again. If you presume that your anger is only a result of helplessness, and not a prompt for redirection into calculation, it can become depression.
Over the course of the lifetime, it will fluctuate in themes between Calculation and Depression, and this fluctuation is natural, but Calculation will always allow from for anger, while Depression will presume it must be fought. Embracing your moments of anger, or helplessness, is Good Work.