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From a Private Live Chat with Michael on February 28, 2013:
[Maureen]: Dream February 12, 2013am:
In the first dream I had met a man, who I was moving in with (I think I was to marry him), who was very “handsome”, in every way, to me. I liked his “look” – he was tall, quiet, well-spoken, kind, considerate, collected art and seemed to be well-off or affluent. He was graceful, refined, elegant – in an old-world kind of way – and was dressed in a lovely suit.
When we were moving in to his place, which was like a huge loft (height) but also went on into many rooms, there was many “features” and custom-made furniture that was starting to show its’ wear. His place had aged well – but everything has a limit before it starts to show wear and tear.
At one point (I can’t believe I did this and didn’t go find a toilet!) I sat on one of his counters in his kitchen that was covered in a beautiful very tight-fitted brown leather and I had to discharge something – I think it was fluid from my 2 Chakra (sexual fluid) and my bladder (urine).
After I made a mark – that wasn’t too noticeable – that’s when I started noticing a few other “marks” of aging around his place. He also had many beautiful pieces of fine art on his walls. I got the impression that we hadn’t had sexual intimacy yet – it felt a little “old-fashioned” like he was very old-world with all the courtly manners and ways – like getting married before one has sex.
When I woke up it bothered me a bit that this may mean there is “another” man out there for me (another mate agreement perhaps), as I am happy with Lorie and don’t want to think of the possibility of there being an opportunity to be with another man – but I am curious about who the man was in this dream.
[Maureen]: In a second dream Troy was visiting Toronto with BF Bobby along with a number of Troy’s and BFB’s relatives who were visiting at the same time. For some reason it fell on me to make it happen. I had to book an expensive lunch and a visit to a lounge at a nice hotel and another meal afterwards with all the details of people getting to and fro.
I think BF Bobby’s mother and father were here with the group and my husband Lorie as well. The lunch felt odd to me (…even what I was eating – a Kale dish that had more cheese in it than Kale) and at one point I had to leave my ½ eaten lunch and go see about one of the families that had 3 young boys who’s “energy” was getting them into “trouble”.
I sorted out directions, etc., for everyone to get to the lounge (the next stop) and when I returned to my table all the food and dishes had been removed except my dish and cup and cutlery – except the remainder of the food had been whisked away – they were empty.
It was strange. I hadn’t liked it that much, but I would have finished it – I was perplexed as to why they removed the food but left my empty dishes.
[MEntity]: In response to the first dream: Maureen, there will always have been "others" with whom Mate Agreements would/could have been fulfilled. That is the nature of choice. The key is not in comparisons to what could/would have been, but in what you do with the choices YOU make. This is your art. You can scrap it, tweak it, preserve it, nurture it, etc, but it is yours.
[MEntity]: Your dream appears to have been a visit with one of your Guides. Astrally-speaking, that home is yours. Your Guide cares for it. It is where you go between lives. You return there when you begin to forget that what you have is valuable, beautiful, and more fulfilling than you remember. And you mark it again as yours.
[Maureen]: LOL -- I make that joke all the time -- about how we mark our "territory".
[Maureen]: Which Guide was it Michael?
[MEntity]: The theme continues in the dream regarding the meal. Missing the point of an experience can sometimes be lost to the begrudging, demanding details of it.
[MEntity]: This Guide appears to be your Essence Twin, a Warrior.
[Maureen]: Oh -- now that's a surprise
[Maureen]: That is making me cry
[MEntity]: It is your astrally-shared space where you meet, plan, regroup, etc. We used the term "guide" here only in the sense that these meetings are as guiding as any other more direct relationships with Guides for the life. Essence Twins are, technically then, always "guides" for one another.
[MEntity]: The personification you brought to the dream was one that appeals to this Personality, and is drawn from a past life Personality of the Warrior.
[MEntity]: Most fragments relate to one another on the Astral in this way. Each sees the other as personified by the most meaningful of known Personalities of the past.
[Maureen]: I'm not sure why I'm crying -- except I have been really feeling like I "missed" him recently. <after note: This feeling of “missing” an Essence Twin, who I haven’t spent any quality time with in this lifetime, is perplexing to me. It’s washed over me recently in waves. I can’t explain it except to say, at the time it happens, it feels like no one else can satisfy this deep longing for intimacy. By intimacy, I mean a full and complete “merging”, on every level, as “one”.>
[MEntity]: This can carry over into dreams, as well.
[Maureen]: How does he see me?
[MEntity]: That would vary, of course, but one of the favorites and most-consistent appears to be from the life where "you" were brothers who survived abuse because of your wits, creativity, and nurturing strength. The Warrior, then, often "sees" "you" as his big brother when the Warrior calls upon an Astral meeting.
[Maureen]: Thanks so much Michael!
[Maureen]: This has been very healing for me.
[MEntity]: We must conclude here for today, Maureen. We will continue into further territory of exploration and healing as we continue to work with you.
[MEntity]: This exchange only highlighted the healing you were already in the process of integrating.
[MEntity]: Gaining insight into the symbolism helps to bring it to conscious recognition, and thus becomes a moment of Essence Recognition as you see yourself collapse into a moment of wholeness with Essence.
[Maureen]: yes -- crying again...
After this session it's very comforting to know that we can meet and do meet on the Astral.
NOTE: <Interesting, I wrote this on February 17, 2013> My Essence Twin, a Warrior-cast Warrior from C1E1, is no longer incarnated. I dated him for a while in High School and we got along well, albeit we were quite young. My memory of him was a feeling of closeness and familiarity. I remember that I really liked his "smell", in fact I can still recall it. He died in his early 50's so I have no way of re-connecting with him now ...in this life any way. :)